Geeky Dad and Beyond

I’m slowly recovering from a migraine attack as I write this. I’ve been doing my best to stay hydrated, but the heat lately has been relentless.  This morning, after taking a shower, I noticed something I wasn’t quite ready to face: hair loss. Not dramatic, not alarming… but noticeable. The kind that makes you pause for a second longer in front of the mirror. I guess it’s time to finally invest in Minoxidil. I refuse to give up on my dream of becoming a proper silver fox someday. As if that wasn’t enough, I also had a small reality check last Saturday. I went out to Obar, fully intending to enjoy the night like I used to—but I didn’t even make it through the second set. At some point, my body just said, “That’s enough,” and honestly, I had to listen. It’s a strange feeling, realizing that stamina isn’t what it used to be. I suppose these are the subtle signs. Not loud, not dramatic—but persistent. The kind that reminds you that your body keeps score, whether you pay att...

2025 has been, without a doubt, a low point for me when it comes to gaming—and not because I lost interest, but because life demanded my attention elsewhere. I had to step back and refocus on mattered at the time: my career, my health, and my family. Those priorities needed my full energy, and while it wasn’t always easy to set aside the things I enjoy, it was necessary. Sometimes, passion has to take a back seat so that life can move forward in a healthier, more stable direction. That doesn’t mean I gave everything up completely. I still found moments for model building and a bit of gaming here and there—small pockets of time where I could unwind and reconnect with what I love. But other hobbies, like board games and tabletop RPGs, definitely took a hit. They require more time, more coordination, and more mental space than I could afford at the time. Now, things are different. Life feels more balanced again. I’m in a better place—physically, mentally, and emotionally. And with that st...

Something geeky for now Right now, I’m on Volume 4 of the Overlord light novel series. I really enjoy how Ainz, despite being an overpowered ruler, feels like a father protecting his children (the NPCs). For manga, I’m currently following: One Piece (I read in batches) Sousou no Frieren (on hiatus, sadly) Welcome to Demon School! Iruma-kun The Apothecary Diaries I’m also hoping to start reading X-Men and Superman comics soon. So far, it’s been a good year for reading, and I’m excited to keep going.

“I’m going to be fine.” This used to be one of the biggest lies I told myself. Behind those words lived dread, fear, anger, sorrow—sometimes even hatred and self-loathing. I would say them not because I believed them, but because I felt I had to. I said them to calm the people in my life, to make sure they didn’t worry, because deep down I felt like a burden… or worse. But life has a way of changing you. Those words are no longer lies. Yes, I still say them to reassure others—but now, I mean them. Not because everything is okay, but because I’ve decided to do something about it. “I’m going to be fine” is no longer just something I say to survive the moment. It’s something I choose to do something about.  It’s a declaration. There will still be bad days. That hasn’t changed. But what has changed is me. And for the first time, I believe it when I say it: I’m going to be fine.

It’s been four years since my last post. Four years of living and trying to figure things out. Now I’m here again, trying to write. So let’s begin. 2020 was about survival. My life was falling apart. My marriage ended, and the lockdown made everything harder. At that time, the goal was simple: just get through each day. I bonded with people in Attack Arena . Some stayed, some didn’t, but all of them mattered. Those connections helped me more than I expected, and I still remember them. That was also the time of my “slut phase.” I got into hookup culture and met a lot of different people. Some experiences were good, some weren’t. I learned a lot, even if it wasn’t always clear at the time. At the same time, I got deep into gaming, especially TTRPGs. Looking back, those were some of my best years in gaming. It gave me something steady when everything else felt unstable. 2021 was when things started to change. I didn’t just want to survive anymore. I wanted a better life. Seeing...

  As a kid born in the 80’s, I grew up watching Transformers G1 cartoons. It has made an impact in my life that I decided to dedicate the month of March to be a Transformers theme month. Expect for the blog posts to be related to Transformers for the whole month. According to TFWiki, in most of his incarnations Ratchet is the Autobots' Chief Medical Officer. There have also been a lot of interpretations to his personality from having a party-loving nature with a dry wit to a war veteran scarred by the brutalities of war.  I always wanted to be a doctor when I was a kid and while kids would often choose Optimus Prime, Bumblebee, or Grimlock, I would choose Ratchet and since no one chose him I felt he was my Transformer.

It's Friday night! The weekend has officially began for most us. No matter how you want to spend it I wish you had a great time. Technology is such a wonderful thing. It has our lives a lot easier and comfortable. We can talk and connect to love ones even though they are far away from us. More than a dozen tools now fit on the palm of your hand. There are downsides of course and one of them is our dependency to WIFI. I just don't mean internet access, what we "need" is fast internet access. I have very limited internet access right now and I was surprised at my frustration and anger. I need for my work and I wasn't getting my work done because of internet problems. I realized how dependent I was. I think I need to change my attitude and perspective on these sort of things. Especially in channeling my frustrations. How about you what do you do when there's no wifi?

Okay just a disclaimer this is not daydreaming or being delusional. The question is, if you are to live as a normal person in a fantasy or sci-fi world what would it be? My answer is would Exalted in the First Age of Man and Star Trek during the Next Generations time. The reason for that is has the comforts in life that I am now enjoying and maybe more but the sense of adventure and discovery is still there. How about you where would like to live?

Happy Lunar New Year! I forgot to greet anyone and for that my apologies. I wasn't in the best mental state yesterday that I didn't get be social or productive as much as I wanted too. It got so bad I was that I even posted in a messenger group asking for help. My friends were there to help me out and for that I am grateful, but to be honest I don't want to do that anymore and it's not sustainable. Let's be honest folks we will eventually not want to hangout to someone who is perpetually depressed. So I picked up an old book last night to be productive and as luck would have it's Who Moved My Cheese? by Spencer Johnson. A quick background about the book according to Wikipedia, it was published on September 8, 1998, is a bestselling seminal work and motivational business fable by Spencer Johnson. The text describes the way one reacts to major change in one's work and life, and four typical reactions to those changes by two mice and two "Littl...

Now for something sentimental. I had a pretty good day this Saturday. I got to rest my head during the day and spend time with the kids. I also got to hang-out with close friends online. Now the room is quiet with the kids playing outside with their aunties. I am alone with thoughts. I decided to listen to some music to ease my troubled mind. I quickly put it in shuffle and as if the universe decided to play with me. It decided to play love songs from a time I was in love, me being being a masochist decided to ride with it. Now lying down on the bed while the music is playing in the background, I realized in doesn't hurt anymore. I think it's a good thing to feel this way now, it might be that I have processed my feelings already. Happy weekend guys!

My life has been for the most part an adventure, but like most adventure there are hardships and challenges so it's inevitable that you take some damage and trauma along the way. Sometimes you need help in dealing with this issues and that's where the experts come in. I have been in therapy for a long time but thankfully now is more for catch and monitoring rather than the more serious stuff. Here are some things I have learned during my therapy sessions You have to do research on your therapist and it's okay to change if you're not comfortable with him/her. I had a couple of therapists over the years, some were good and others not so much. They have their own areas of expertise and there's nothing with finding them out. Don't also feel guilty if you need to change therapist for variety of reason. The priority is your mental health. Be honest during therapy. I cannot emphasize this enough. Your therapist is not a mind reader if you are not honest or open to your...

Now for something geeky. I think only some of my friends know this but my favorite superhero is Cyclops of the X-Men from Marvel Universe.  A quick background, Cyclops (Scott Summers) is a fictional character appearing in American comic books published by Marvel Comics and is a founding member of the X-Men. Created by writer Stan Lee and artist/co-plotter Jack Kirby, the character first appeared in the comic book The X-Men.  Cyclops emits powerful beams of energy from his eyes, and can only control the beams with the aid of special eyewear which he must wear at all times. I don't know the details why he's my favorite but it seems that I can relate to him to some degree. I actually enjoy his development as character from his many mental issues and romantic relationship problems. He is also depending on the writer he can a great leader or stickler for rules. So who's your favorite superhero?

Last week of January and the hustle is real. As you know I am part of the business development department, and a big part of it is sales. Sales also means quota and the last few days of the month are the most stressful. No worries though on my part, I have learned through my past experiences that panicking and stressing too much will cause more problems in the long run.  Spent the day actually doing my tasks diligently by listing it down and declaring it to our chat group. It helps me in keeping myself focus. It also challenges me to achieve them. Now I am exhausted but in a good way. Now I get relax and rest.  

It's a very slow Sunday. The kids and I woke up late today and we decided to watch some videos together for the most part of it. I should really think of activities to stimulate their minds. Maybe I will let them read a book or two while they are here.  Lately I have made more effort in maintaining my mental health. It's very important I do it since I want to make sure that the progress I made doesn't go to waste. Here are some of the things I do: I surround myself with the people I love and care about. I don't know if they know it but a lot of friends and love ones have kept me sane through this pandemic and I am thankful for them I focus on a task and avoid distractions. It helps with those random thoughts that blindside during the times I am awake. I am learning to face my thoughts head on. I do this by writing them down and reading it. It actually satisfying to do it. I know there's more that I can do but so far these things work. How about you guys how do you m...

  It's Sophia's 7th birthday today. She's growing really fast and I can still remember when I first held her in my arms. She will always be that baby to me no matter what happens. I guess it's really true for most parents that your kids will always your babies in your eyes The kids are with me right now and they will be staying with me till February 2. I intend to make the most out of it. I have activities plan but right now we are just chilling watching anime which is nice on its own way. I am starting this blog for a couple of reasons. First is to celebrate life and its blessings, and make sure I learn to appreciate it by writing it down. Second is to practice writing, no better time than to start now. Hahaha. Lastly to be able my thoughts and opinions to the world. I will try my best to keep this updated in a daily basis till it becomes a habit.